Goddess/Sidhe/Demonic/Starseed
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Post by Ashtart on Apr 3, 2015 18:26:42 GMT -5
Among the first memories that I received were memories of floating through the stars.
I think this was my essence, or a part of my essence. I think that my original whole self was on Earth, and that she was shattered. One aspect of me/her was locked above the Earth to watch her loved ones suffer. One was locked beneath the oceans, sleeping. And one was cast off into space, completely ignorant of the life that she'd had before or what she had truly been.
She/I floated through space for a long time. We watched the stars twinkle and talk to each other. We glimpsed distant worlds, blue and orange and yellow. We floated past colorful gaseous nebulas. We floated past supernovas.
Outer space is so incredibly lovely. Peaceful, quiet, very very colorful.
This aspect of me was... slightly more solid than a "soul" - being of the physical plane - but kind of transparent, not fully there. Sort of fairy-ish. But not.
And we floated and floated and floated and eventually (over thousands of years?) found ourselves falling/floating into a large blue star. And there were others in that star, like us. They had been there for a long time, and their purpose or the purpose they'd made for themselves, was to dance, and frolic, and be joyful. Sometimes when I look at fire burning I see fire spirits dancing. Almost as if their dancing and joy is what *causes* the fire to burn bright and hot. So it was in this blue star.
We danced and frolicked and were joyful and burned bright within it until one day some of them began dying off. Then more and more.
As far as I know, we sent out a few of us to trail the energy that was causing this death, they trailed it and came back and it had come from Earth.
Is this a weird kind of providence? Probably. Back to the very planet I had originally come from.
So they decided to send bands of us to Earth (back to Earth for me, who had come from there) to find out what was causing the death energy, and to fix it if we could.
And so I come to another of my memories, floating down to the blue planet earth form the sky with 20 or 30 others from that star, all of us feminine energy of white light.
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Post by DarkLight on Apr 6, 2015 16:36:11 GMT -5
It must have been beautiful to see all that...but having to relive the pain... I could only imagine.
Some of your memories of the stars strike me as familiar. Like I said in my intro I remembered floating amongst the stars too. You said you were shattered into different aspects, right? Why do you think that happened, or how? Also I'm curious to know who sent out the call. Because funny enough, I remember being called somewhere, but it was to where the Shadow were. Then things get fuzzy. I'll type on a different thread, but I must say that every time I read this post there are things that felt more and more familiar.
And the death energy. It is the kind of death that proceeds life, or the unnatural oblivion you talked about before?
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Post by Ashtart on Apr 6, 2015 21:13:24 GMT -5
Thanks Yes I do think that our memories share some striking similarities too... Why was I shattered - one of the gods shattered me during a moment of intense grief for me that he also caused. I was in so much shock and pain from what he did that he was able to reach into my core and *undo* some vital thing that kept me all as one. As for why, I still wonder, but I think it may have been jealousy because I left him when he wanted me to join with him in something I didn't agree with. The death energy, it wasn't the unnatural oblivion, but we could tell it was because something was out of balance that shouldn't be, so it wasn't natural either.
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Post by DarkLight on Apr 7, 2015 23:58:57 GMT -5
Interesting that you talked about something that kept you as one whole being. That reminds me of something I wrote/am writing about. It's a story about these seven women who have these energy bonds in their souls called "Goddess Threads". Because of their Goddess thread, they are almost indestructible and the only way they could be killed off permanently is if someone removes the thread and makes their soul shatter. I really should keep writing that story.... My guides are getting testy O.o
Did I mention I wrote this before I knew much about the Shadow or being a Goddess. *sinks in her seat* Everytime I create something it tied to my destiny. Ah, the woes and wonders of being an artist XD
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Post by Ashtart on Apr 13, 2015 22:04:52 GMT -5
Whoa that really deeply gave me chills Ever have that feeling like someone just looked right through you to your core? Goddess threads huh? Well if we had them he probably reached in and snatched that out of me. :/ That asshole... Lol!
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