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Post by Ashtart on Mar 26, 2015 18:57:56 GMT -5
I just finished watching "Batman Begins" again. Definitely one of my favorite movies.
The first time I saw it back when in 2005, I thought I heard my guides taking it like a sign that enough things were in place in the world, and enough people were aware of who and what they truly are, that "we can begin." Begin what, I don't know.
But as I rewatched the film, I began to think personally about the questions the characters were asking each other.
"What do you fear?" what you fear is what holds you back. To dive into your fear and own it and face it is to turn it into your power.
I fear. I fear the power of my choice. I fear the moment when I faced the corrupt gods and did nothing to save us. I fear responsibility.
I think that when I incarnated into this life, the life in the time period when the actions we take are more meaningful than any other life we've had so far, I arranged for so many things to get in my way. Obstacles designed purely for the purpose of taking away my choice... So that I would come to realize that I don't truly want to live without responsibility, without choice. That is a dead life. To own up to your responsibility is to live. And as much as that scares me, it is preferable.
It's pointless to be frozen, afraid to make the wrong choice. What matters is to live. To do that, we must choose. We must act. We must move forward.
... What do you fear?
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Post by DarkLight on Mar 27, 2015 21:56:13 GMT -5
I fear my power. I've been burned by it many times before. I love having that power. But I feared it would change me so I hid it deep within. I know that it sleeps deep, waiting for me to wake it up. I've grown so much, I have a greater of self knowledge and knowledge of the world around me. I get giddy when I think what I could do if I roused it again. I think the loved ones I could help, the wounds I could heal. I also shudder to think the wrong I could do as well. Darkness is something that takes strength to accept and love. I know who and what I am. The....power knows too. And it won't let me slip away so easily. Not anymore. Acceptance takes courage. I will gather that courage because it's what I truly want.
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Post by Ashtart on Apr 2, 2015 21:27:35 GMT -5
Yes, it's so easy to hide our power for fear of being burned by it, fear of hurting others, fear of how it could affect the planet. Sometimes with good reason. I've heard so many of us talk about beings that come to them in order *to* limit their power. Painful bindings that we undo little by little. I've had bindings like that. Most of them are gone. And I think we're all better for it. I think that everytime we become free and be ourselves to the fullest that we are able to, everyone benefits. We are able to see what "free" looks like. Then again, sometimes it just feels like we're in uncharted territory, and no one wants to make a mistake that could set us all back hundreds of years.
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Post by Apzu-Nun on Apr 3, 2015 23:58:56 GMT -5
I am not sure what I fear in the sense of the word, I love my dark energy, my power, etc. Though I could probably say I do fear a bit the outcome of the Age of Reason if it ever happens in this lifetime. In terms of mundane fears..well I fear a lot which turns out to be associated with my true self (snakes, spiders, scorpions, etc)
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Post by DarkLight on Apr 6, 2015 16:23:09 GMT -5
Yes, it's so easy to hide our power for fear of being burned by it, fear of hurting others, fear of how it could affect the planet. Sometimes with good reason. I've heard so many of us talk about beings that come to them in order *to* limit their power. Painful bindings that we undo little by little. I've had bindings like that. Most of them are gone. And I think we're all better for it. I think that everytime we become free and be ourselves to the fullest that we are able to, everyone benefits. We are able to see what "free" looks like. Then again, sometimes it just feels like we're in uncharted territory, and no one wants to make a mistake that could set us all back hundreds of years. That's exactly how I feel. Sutkeh I applaud you for accepting your dark energies, you too Ashtart. Once upon a time I did. I never realized that power, that strength that coursed through me. It was beautiful, mad, miraculous, dangerous and completely natural to me like breathing. I don't want to run away anymore. This spiritual fear is cloying my good senses. I really need to snap out of it because this isn't me. I already have a job and live in a society that wants me to be everything but my true self. Rebelling against those kinds of constraints meant accepting all of who I am, power, weakness, flaws, strengths and all.
But that's another thing: I fear who my Goddess self is. I know who She is, and I know that if I were to blurt it out I'd be looked at funny and questioned heavily. Hell, I was afraid to say on the Shadow of the Fallen forum, too.
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Post by Ashtart on Apr 6, 2015 20:50:27 GMT -5
Ah, I could write books and books on the fear of revealing the goddess self when you have a job and a "sane" image to uphold lol!
When you figure it out, let the rest of us know!
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