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Post by DarkLight on Mar 18, 2015 13:01:19 GMT -5
I wonder if it's just me but has any of you guys have moments in which is seems as if your deity-self seems to "take over" your personality? I'm trying not to make the two appear separate. However there are moment where I feel like my goddess self decides to "overshadow" my personality for a few minutes. These times are brief but they are pretty potent. From what I've seen on other forums, Therians go through it too, as well as some Dragonkin. Why do you think this happens? I think maybe we try to do the whole "this is me and that thing waaaaaay over there is my deity self. Say hi!". You get what I mean? Maybe it's a response to that idea that thought we're incarnated deities, we distance our "mundane" selves from our deities selves.
Anyone have any experiences with that? I have plenty O.O Also does it make you uncomfortable? Since I'm still trying to come to terms with my identification, it feels odd most of the time. Mostly people react why cocked eyebrows and gasps. I just shrug it off. I mean, if the incarnate's deity self has a completely different personality then I image it would be something interesting to see, lol.
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Post by Ashtart on Mar 18, 2015 16:30:07 GMT -5
This is a great point, DarkLight and something that a lot of kin do have experience with. In my own experience, it can be very unsettling and uncomfortable. I really hate the feeling of something else "taking over!" lol! On the other hand it can be fascinating if you know what I mean. One such takeover was how I discovered that my other self hates "cold metal" - anything cast or forged of metal.
Anyone else have experiences to share?
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Post by DarkLight on Mar 23, 2015 3:48:53 GMT -5
That's interesting about reaction to metal, Ash. Same with me except instead of metal it's rue. *shudders* Just the thought of makes me feel off. I respect its power, but don't like the effects. I get all woozy. As for personality I use to be shy and meek. I'm much more direct these days and tend not hide what I feel at certain times. Some people say I'ge become waaaaay more intense. Like Scorpio intense, "the stare" and everything. But this isn't a bad thing to me. My concern is even as I grow into my soul identity, I can't help but wonder if I'm still "me" or not. Am I just a mask with no distinct personality? Or is the woman I'm becoming really the woman I have always been? The shadow self doesn't always hide our weaknesses and negative emotions. Sometimes they hide the best of ourselves and powers we have been conditioned to bury. Hmm....
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Post by Apzu-Nun on Mar 23, 2015 21:44:09 GMT -5
I never saw myself as separate, when both my halves became a whole I still considered myself me, never split anything but personally I don't understand 95% of the community lol.
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Post by Ashtart on Mar 25, 2015 3:34:56 GMT -5
I had to look up rue, lol. The question of "Is this still me or not" is one that we all have to ask ourselves when we're having this sort of experience. It can be troubling to think that the "me" who is formed by this life's experiences and precious relationships can be overridden by another "me" that doesn't seem to have any connection to this life. I suppose some of the question becomes, Have they been there all along, or not? And if they've been there all along, does that make it more okay when they seek to come up and overtake our more docile personalities?
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Post by The Chaotic Mother on Mar 25, 2015 12:50:09 GMT -5
I too experience time and again the overshadowing of the personality I've developed as a human. It usually happens on its own, but at this point, I can induce it if I simply relax, close my eyes, and concentrate a bit on wanting it to happen. But there are few people I'll actually speak to during that shift; I usually just "revert" to what can be called this body's default setting if I talk to someone while overshadowed and unfortunately, doing so is a mainly an automatic process. Sometimes the reversion only lasts until I finish speaking with whomever I'm speaking to, and sometimes the overshadowing reverts entirely for the time being.
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Post by DarkLight on Mar 27, 2015 23:14:17 GMT -5
It's weird for me since my Goddess self posseses many personality traits I have yet She still feels distinct. Honestly, the more I think about it the more I realize that we two might be so different after all. Perhaps if I safely induce it I can explore more into this. Who knows, maybe these overlaps will ease up. But for the most part they get a bit tiring lol.
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Post by Ashtart on Apr 1, 2015 22:18:44 GMT -5
It's nice that you can shift mindsets at will Meti'ne. Why do you think you shift out when someone is talking to you? DarkLight that is the weird thing isn't it? Similar, but not the same... For me at least it definitely feels like a different mind. Almost makes me want to start wondering Well, what is the nature of the "mind" anyway? Lol! There are some philosophers that say that even as we age we cannot be said to be the "same person." Although we have shared the same space and the same memories who we were once eventually is replaced with who we are now
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Post by DarkLight on Jul 27, 2015 18:33:15 GMT -5
You know it's like how our body cells die and we get one healthier ones and by six months time we technically have a new body. Spiritually... I see how that works too. I know she's there, I know our name and even though I find every excuse to run, she will always find me. Still I keep finding things we have in common and sure enough, I now what to run toward her, to all of this. To know myself is the most honest and loving gift I can give myself.
The overshadows still happen but not as much and they really feel natural to me at this point. In fact it's less like an overshadow and more like a boost or something. It's hard to put it into language.
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Post by Ashtart on Sept 14, 2015 17:14:26 GMT -5
To know myself is the most honest and loving gift I can give myself. This is so true.
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