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Post by Ashtart on Dec 18, 2015 2:14:52 GMT -5
I have another angel memory to share. A couple related to the Lucifer. On our sister board, Shadow of the Fallen, I met another lady who was or is in fact, the Lucifer. Our connection started when I posted a glimpse of a memory I'd gotten, rather violent, where I stabbed a fallen angel with a shard of glass and killed him. But he was my friend and I was heartbroken. She sent me a private message kind of nervous and said "Do you think that Fallen Angel might have been Lucifer?" The thought hadn't even crossed my mind before she said it but after she did it seemed to strike a chord with me. To fill an empty hole inside me that I didn't even notice was there before. So I said no, I haven't thought about that, why do you say that? And she said because I think that was me that you killed and I'm Lucifer. So we started sharing and remembering together over private message. Everything she shared with me struck a chord with me and everything I shared with her struck a chord with her. We seemed to have shared some lifetimes together, showing up in each other's lives over and over. I wouldn't say we're friends now exactly, but neither are we enemies to my knowledge. I said something she didn't like and she cut me out of her life very abruptly. It was very satanic of her harharharhar When we were still friends we remembered a TON together, most of which you can still read over there at fallenshadow.boards.net . One thing we were able to remember was fighting a war against each other and being really really really angry at each other, trying really hard to kill each other. I think he succeeded that time, or at least got a good stab in, and the reason it comes to mind now was I was just sitting here and suddenly saw him in my mind striding up to me on that field, wrapping his hand around my neck and lifting me off of my feet to look me in the eyes. There was sooooo muuuuch hatred in his eyes it got stuck in my energy. A part of me can't get past that moment, seeing someone who I'd shared so much good with look at me with such crazy hate.
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Post by DarkLight on Jan 5, 2016 17:48:50 GMT -5
I think I know who you're talking about. It's too bad I never got the chance to meet her, though.
I think it's a bit frightening, the fact you had a vision of Lucifer doing that to you. Did anything prompt it, or was it just sudden? A lot of my apparition sightings are quite sudden and random (I'm looking at you barefooted dude in a cloak *waggles finger*). It's strange. For me I feel like I know Lucifer, but everything for now is a blurry memory.
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Post by Ashtart on Jan 24, 2016 22:50:06 GMT -5
Yeah it was not so fun. It wasn't frightening though it certainly didn't feel good. I think when I have a memory come up the feelings come first and simmer below the surface then the memory comes and sort of relieves the pressure. The feeling (like hatred, sadness or fear) goes away when I actually see what was causing it.
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Post by DarkLight on Jan 27, 2016 1:21:30 GMT -5
It's rare to hear of such an intense experience like that from memories. I see why it troubles you, but what if it's really a form of ...guidance towards something. If this seems like I am trivializing your experiences, I'm extremely sorry. I wanted to point out that many times in the magikal world that the most intense, uncomfortable events may trying to tell us something important. What do you think?
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